I've been doing some thinking about my worries and concerns and stress, and I think I've come to an important conclusion. Some bad things have happened, but I can't change them. Nothing I do will change the past, and I can't affect other people's presents. I need to learn to let go and focus on my life and what I can do in my own life.
I also want to stop worrying so much about my future and what part my father will or will not play in it. I need to stop comparing what I thought my future would be like to what it realistically will be like. Again, there are things I can't change.
Letting go is going to be hard for me. I like to be in control and I like to have solutions for problems. But there are some things too big for me to fix. And there are other things that can't be fixed, period. No amount of wishing or worrying will change the situation.
So I am focusing on me and my life. Learning to appreciate what is good right now, and realizing that I have a lot to be grateful for. I live a good life.
I want to let go of the negative. I feel that there are some chapters in my life that I am finally ready to close, or at least begin closing. It will take some time, but I know I need to move forward. I want to move forward.
I am living in the now, focusing on all the good parts of my life. Not breaking down over events in the past, or driving myself crazy worrying about the future. All I can do is live my life the best way I can, right now. In the now.